Guilty! I’ve Been Afraid to Share This!

You might remember that time I sunbathed naked in my yard?!

Well, I’ve been afraid to tell you WHY I left the suit in the drawer,

I didn’t want to put on a bathing suit because I felt really FAT that day.

You see, I grew up a little on the chunky side, and what’s interesting is, I didn’t even occur to me until I was made fun of in 6th grade by a couple girls who called me “thunder thighs.”

I remember feeling really confused, I recall pausing, looking down at my body, then looking at them, I didn’t think we looked very different from each other.

And in that moment, a flip switched in me.

I went from being the happy, go-lucky, friendly, fearless little girl, to a girl who was ashamed of her body, and believed she had to look a certain way to be loved.

I carried that belief with me for YEARS. It shaped how I showed up in the world, and it influenced the men I attracted.

I KNOW how it feels to believe you’re unworthy.

It doesn’t feel good.

And It doesn’t attract in the kind of men you want to date.

Now, when the Ghost of Worthiness Past comes to rear it’s head, I know it’s here inviting me to go deep, and call on the true love and beauty inside that is my truth.

I know it’s not my man’s job to make me feel attractive.

It’s my responsibility, and as a Goddess, I take pleasure in that role 🙂

Believe me, I’ve tried to get my worth from a man, it’s exhausting and doesn’t yield good results.

At the end of the day, we all have our story as to WHY we do what we do, or think what we think, and when it comes to worth and value, ain’t nobody gonna give it to you ’til YOU give it to you!

Don’t let not having a 6-pack stop you from going for love!

You are beautiful no matter what your size. You are worthy of love regardless of the scale, AND as soon as you start to own that, you will see a shift in who you attract into your life.

Comments 1

  1. Thanks for sharing. I think even the most confident people occasionally doubt themselves. I can totally relate to the body shame idea. I am very fit but still a bit over weight. I am proud of the work I have put in to become strong and healthy but looking in the mirror, I still see someone who really needs to shed another 15 pounds.

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